I didn’t want to run today, but I did anyway

As you all know I have been preparing for the Great Manchester Run in a couple of weeks. This morning was a scheduled run (I try to get out for a run at minimum twice a week. This morning I really did not fancy it, I woke up about 6am and felt shattered, my musclesContinue reading “I didn’t want to run today, but I did anyway”

Forget All Future Plans, Episode 2: The Address

Helen was planning on spending the week at her flat, so on Monday morning Helen kissed John goodbye, telling him she would ring this evening.  John was in the office this morning, it was his first day back in old team. He was getting handover from Amanda (his boss) and Sanjay (his colleague)who had remainedContinue reading “Forget All Future Plans, Episode 2: The Address”

Forget All Future Plans: Episode 1

John has volunteered to help out on the staff support helpline, fielding calls from worried members of staff about their symptoms or symptoms of family members. The employee services staff field the calls first then pass them onto John and his colleague Jane, if they are a little more complex or if they feel theContinue reading “Forget All Future Plans: Episode 1”

Background and Timeline for Forget All Future Plans

This is the introduction into the world of Forget All Future plans, which is the project that came out of COVID and turned into a personal project about grief and loss. It is not a finished project and will unfold on here as I write more content over the coming months. Some of you willContinue reading “Background and Timeline for Forget All Future Plans”

A blog about how I am going to learn how to grieve for my Dad 24 years too late…

I have a confession to make, lately have been neglecting this blog. I have been struggling to write for a few years now. I have made up lots of reasons, like not having much to say or trying out new formats. In fact I have just given substack a go for the second time, seducedContinue reading “A blog about how I am going to learn how to grieve for my Dad 24 years too late…”

Happy Easter

Happy Easter, I hope everyone is having a restful weekend, even if it is just for some of it. So far I have a had a lovely weekend. Our weekend started on Thursday evening, myself and Lisa went to Hull City Hall to see Richard Herring’s Leicester Square Theatre Podcast on tour. He interviewed BobContinue reading “Happy Easter”

New Beginnings

Yesterday we took Jack to Manchester, he has gone a month early to settle in an look for a job before he starts his studies in September. He will be sharing a house with his big brother who goes into his 2nd year. Surprisingly it was a lovely day. We spent the afternoon with bothContinue reading “New Beginnings”

29/05/2020 Jack’s 18th Birthday

My youngest is 18 today. I am sure not the 18th he dreamed about. No trip to the pub with his mates, no night out at Welly, or Spiders. Just a trip to Sainsbury’s local with his ID to buy in his first legal beer. Maybe a kick-about in the garden with his brother thenContinue reading “29/05/2020 Jack’s 18th Birthday”

10/04/2020 My Son’s Birthday

Ben my eldest is 20 today. 20! I know, hard to believe! Along with millions of others he is having a birthday in the house. He is making the best of it, but it is not the same as spending it with his friends and girlfriend. He did however point out that he had plannedContinue reading “10/04/2020 My Son’s Birthday”

03/04/2020 On the up slope

Well I have woken up this morning albeit very early starting to feel normal after 10 ten days. My cough is now infrequent and the chest pain is diminished. After I wrote yesterdays entry I felt really quite unwell and emotional. I thought I was getting worse again, and for a moment I started overthinkingContinue reading “03/04/2020 On the up slope”